I Just Don't Care

It has taken me an awfully long time to get to this point, but something AWESOME happened today! I'm not sure if it is just an experience that I have been blessed to have for this one day or if I will be blessed to experience it for longer!  Praying that it sticks around for awhile! :)

Earlier today someone (in my family) made a negative comment about how I looked.  Like almost any other girl reacts, usually comments like that, no matter how small or seemingly insignificant, would send me spirally into hours of internalized self-destruction (telling myself things like "even your family thinks you are ugly", "you need to lose weight", ect.) And I would probably spend a good hour in front of the mirror trying to fix my "imperfect" whatever.

But today, instead of internalizing the comment, it sort of fell right off of me.  IT DIDN'T STICK. I honestly can't even explain why, but the moment it didn't stick I felt something different.  I even responded differently.  My response was, "I just don't care what you think."  Not with an attitude at all.  To be perfectly honest, I don't really remember even thinking about my response... I just sort of said it without thinking.

But to experience that feeling of not caring what other people think about me, even if it was only that once, for the first time ever is probably one of the coolest things ever! I hope I don't ever forget how empowering it was to not have to care about what negative comment someone made about me!





Am I now trying to win the approval of human beings, or of God? Or am I trying to please people?If I were still trying to please people, I would not be a servant of Christ. ---> Galatians 1:10